I recently had a conversation with my sister, who is a college junior, about the path we took in life. For years, she had planned to go a certain direction after college, but she thinks that it might not happen for her now, and she'll need to come up with another plan.
This idea was difficult for her. Although she knew that it was not a guarantee that she will get to places that she wanted to get, it was still a harsh reality when you know that it's not going to happen.
And I can totally relate to that. My whole life up till I graduated from college, I knew what I wanted to do. I got into college and studied the major I wanted.
I've always thought that after college, I would move to the city and got a job in an agency. I would have to pay so much money for a small and noisy apartment. I would take the long commute on the crowded subway every day. I would have to attend meetings and even present in meetings, and it would make me feel anxious for an entire week.
I would have to hustle to make things happen, but this was what I wanted to do. I could not have wait to step on my right path and experience all the ups and downs that it has to offer.
This was what I've always dreamed of. I believe that I'm going to learn so much from it and be able to live my dream life from this point.
Well, sometimes a dream can really only be a dream. This hustle city life definitely did not happen to me. In fact, what happened to me was the complete opposite.
I moved back to my parents' house in a small town, and I've been there until this year. I was not able to find the job to fulfill my passion for marketing and the related field.
Actually, I was struggling to find a job at all. I was finally able to get a position in retail after not having a job for almost six months. Almost a year later I received the opportunity for my last position. Though the pay was much better, and I no longer had to be the frontline staff, it was still not my dream job, so I knew it was not the right path for me.
I ended up staying in my old job for almost three years. During these years I thought about changing job at least twice a month. I was actually actively searching for a while. I've been to a handful of interviews, but it never got anywhere.
It frustrated me so much every time I thought that I'm on the wrong path for my life. I felt lost because I didn't know how to get myself back on track.
I tried to keep myself informed with the current marketing industry, but it just wasn't enough. I no longer felt that I had the skills or knowledge for a position in marketing. Of course, I didn't stop trying. I was still applying for any open positions that I could find, but I didn't feel as confident as before.
Despite all the frustration I felt about my career, I still have to keep living my life and find what makes me happy. I've gotten used to the small town living.
Every night when I got home from work, I would heat up my dinner and ate it in front of my laptop while YouTube or Netflix was playing. After that, I had plenty of time to relax and work on some personal projects I had. This had become my routine after work, and I actually look forward to it every day. Even now that I got a new job (which is still not marketing related), my schedule stays pretty much the same.
I realized, my plan for my future before was all about work. I did not have a plan for my personal life. I feel like this plan would've worked for me when I first graduated with a full tank of passion to burn. And I would have been fine if that was how I lived my life for the past years. But it wasn't, and to be honest, I don't think I could start that kind of lifestyle at this point.
During Thanksgiving this year, I had another conversation with my sister. I was telling her how I wanted a quiet like and was even thinking about having a family in a couple of years. She was surprised because she knew how important career was for me when I was envisioning my future and how I was ready to hustle for it.
But now I'm saying that I like living this slow pace life and forgetting all about the other plans that I had before. It might seem like I'm just being lazy now and don't want to take on any more challenge. Maybe that's true, too, but I just love my current life, and I think that's what's most important.
I love that I was able to learn so many new things at my new job, and my schedule still allows me to have plenty of time to do what I love after work. I feel that I'm on the path that I'm supposed to be at in my life.
I believe that there is not just one current path for everyone, and it's okay for your path to change. What's more important is how you feel. I've heard stories of people who successfully follow their dreams but ended up hating because the reality is just not as wonderful as our dream.
If you are very not happy with your life right now and think that you're on the wrong path, continue to work hard and change that. Or just take a different look at your life. Maybe you can find your other purposes for your life that you've never considered.