It has been two years since I got out of school and entered the "real world." Lately, I found myself thinking about finding a new path more and more often. I really want to take this year to reflect and refocus on my career and my life.
Recently, I read a very helpful post wrote by The Prepary, On finding your passion. I've been following her blog/website for a while and got lots of great advice and inspiration. This post perfectly described my situation and how I feel right now, and most importantly, it made me THINK. A few months ago, I started feeling uncertain about my career and my life. When I was at school, I always thought that I would get my degree and find a decent job in PR or in the related fields after I graduate. I would start as an assistant for the first few years and get to the mid-level position. However, this was not what happened at all. The reality is, it took me six months to get a job in retail. And I spent more than one year to end up behind the desk, doing something that I didn't go to school for.
No, I'm not complaining. I'm actually very grateful that I'm doing what I do now. And I know it's very common that life doesn't go as planned. I love my job; I really do. But I don't know if this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. And it makes me start to wonder about everything.
In The Prepary's post, she asked a question that was captured from the Bobbie Brown writes a letter for her younger self article. "If you could do anything you wanted, what would you do?" It's such a simple question, right? But I actually don't have an answer. And this really makes me realize how "lost" I really am. When I saw the question, my immediate response was "nothing." It scared me thinking that I want to do nothing with my life. Then I began to think harder, and finally found some clue. If I could do anything I want, I want to create something, but I don't know exactly what I want to create. It feels like my answer was covered behind a layer of veil; I could almost see it, but not really.
Taking action, big or small, is an important step when you want to change something. For me, facing my confusion is my first step. I need to find out my answer to the question; I need to reflect what I've done. That way, I can determine my goals and find my passion and refocus on them. I know I still have a very long way to go, and it will not be easy. But at least here is a start.